A Realization

When my father died in 1989, I blamed myself for a long time for his death. The reason being that the night he passed I asked God to take him because he had been suffering for so long. The morning my mom woke my sister, brother and I up at 6:00 in the morning the slow walk up the stairs looking for confirmation of what I already knew. Once she confirmed that he had passed, from that moment on I rested the blame of his death on my shoulders.

The Truth: My father was sick and the sickness he had, had no earthly cure. The only cure for his sickness at that time was death. He was going to be cured at some point, I just did not know when. The night I prayed was the night he became cured, but I associated this event with blame and fault therefore carried the blame and fault. I have since focused on the reality that my father was just sick, and that I had no control over whether he lived or died and know that I was not at fault or to be blamed realeasing that weight from my shoulders.

The Conclusion: If this is how you felt at some point in your life, the best thing to do is find the truth, learn the lesson and let it go. This way you do not continue to carrying the bad emotion of that moment with you longer than necassary.

A Way Out

One thing to focus on when looking for a way out is control, and when I mention control, I am referring to the control we have over what we accept and what we don’t accept. Accepting control is one of the most important steps, because this allows you to open your mind to the people and resources that surround you. Dissecting your current circumstances can give you a foundation for why and how you got to this place on your journey in life. Lastly the fact that you have accepted control, understand the circumstances and have made a choice to get out begins the journey.

While on your journey you come across some obstacles and adversity this is when strength is important to push through these minor setbacks to continue your journey. On your journey you become distracted and veered off your path, this is when your will and determination kick in to remind you to remain focus and return to your path. And when you are tired, struggling and want to return to the old way, your perseverance takes over to get you over the hump to continue on your journey.

At the end of your journey you find that the sacrifices you made along the way were well worth it. The adjustments and last minute changes and choices enabled you to secure your way out for good, and lastly the enjoyment of the freedom that you have created through this journey.

Perspective

To live in the darkness of yourself, how do you combat the demons, which have led you to a place were responsiblity is out of place.

Were no one looked around just made judgements based on their belief system ignoring the very core of yours.

Who are you, tell me who are you, show me, where is the end. Does anyone know? Of course not because they don't even know where their truth lies. Caught up in a lie of justisfication and a root canal to the brain.

Truth has no color just results, consequences, losses, challenges, and lessons. The war is never over because there is always a new battle.